My father got a brain tumor

On Tuesday 4 february at 6PM my daddy died.

A few hours earlier I was standing somewhere on a grass field and was crying and shouting. I just was getting crazy from pain. I just couldn’t stand the situation at home anymore. 

I was shaking.I couldn’t sleep during the night. Hearing my daddy…

I am sitting on the airport. I feel myself as part in a movie. Lost the feeling of what is real and what isn’t.

I am in Holland since 52days. I arrived not expecting anything serious. 10 days later we had the diagnosis GLIOBLASTOME. We were running against the time.

And now? And today I am…

Tow days ago I lost an important job. My situation is “too unpredictable” and the manager cannot rely on me. “Let’s keep in contact.” Bla bla bla. 

Basically it’s this what he was saying: “Poor girl! And Goodbye”

Cancer affects not just one person, but all people around who have to handle this…

Last week was difficult. Around one week ago, the situation got worse. My daddy kept drinking water all night long. Wanting to eat at 3.30, 4.20, 5.30,6.15… We began to understand that Papi often cannot find the right words anymore to describe his problem or feeling. Sleepless nights for the 3 of us…

Do you experience the same: doctors, nurses, friends wishing you strength? I was thinking a lot about what that should really mean. In the moment I figured out for myself some things I really need strength for.

-You need strength to accept you are going to lose a person you love. Accept that you…

My daddy and his wife are extremely relieved that I stay here with them. I really feel that I did the right thing!

I have the feeling he lost weight. I really wonder how that shall come, as he ate and drunk more than enough but maybe it is like this. By the way, I read that other cancer patients…

I thought to go home for 2 weeks now, starting from tomorrow… but it’s tremendously difficult.

Now I am in Holland since nearly 6 weeks. I would love to go home and hug my sister and mother. I would like to work. Go out for a drink in the evening with my friends and have a little bit of normality…

We had a relatively good week. Papi was positive, glad about the Thuiszorg which is now helping us. I was happy about the situation and had the feeling that now we can handle. I planned to go home for some days. 

Now things worsened. 

During the night he now has to get up every 40-50mins to do…

I never wrote about the positive things. Time to change that.

"Wonderful. Super. That's a present. Marvelous." Those are the words my daddy uses most during these days. When seeing my daddy how positive and strong he is in this situation, I become just humble. Wasn’t I too less grateful in the…

The meeting on 6th January with the general doctor was very challenging for us, as there were moments and things we spoke about we will never ever forget anymore. 

Now that my daddy is still able to communicate his thoughts and will in a very clearly way, the doctor tried everything to talk about…